Just Being Real Today…

I’m not gonna lie, I’m getting worn because of feeling so bad all the time.  It’s hard to get up in the morning, it’s hard to do chores, it’s hard to cook, it’s hard to make sure my kids are fed.  It’s hard to force myself to do anything.

I had an endoscopy last Tuesday.  He removed some polyps and sent some tissue for biopsy.  But otherwise, things looked pretty normal.

He started me on a new med.  I’m a week and a half into taking it, and I feel like it actually makes things worse.

I decided last week that I need to focus on doing The Acid Watcher Diet.  I’m having a hard time being consistent with it because life is so busy.  Also, I have had coffee the past few days even though I should because I’m just having a hard time letting that go.

The diet is soooo different than what I have been learning through Balance 365 for a couple of years.

I’ve been told that it works by many people who I’ve started following on Instagram.  Many of them say that it takes time.  It is hard, though, because my GI doc thinks it’s unnecessary, but I don’t really feel like I have any other options.

I’ve been working in the camp store the past three days.  I have been up late each of those days, slept in (which I always do), and I haven’t been able to be consistent with diet because of everything.  I went into this week thinking I would do the diet 100%.  I’m at about 90%, which may have to be enough.

There was a mistake with the money in the camp store, and I’m so anxious about it.  I’m not sure what happened.  That’s a big stressful thing right now.

My cough/shortness of breath is always bad.  It wears me out.

Also, summers are hard for me in general.  I need routine.

I’m feeling depressed most of the time right now and I hate it. And I know it’s situational this time.  I don’t think a med change will help.  I just need to get better physically.

Anyway… sorry for the “realness” today.  I just needed to get it out there.

I’m going to try to focus on doing things even when I don’t feel like it.

I need to do laundry.  I need to do dishes.  I need to vacuum and make my bed.  I also want to focus on doing some homeschool planning.  Maybe these things will get my mind off of the crappy things.

Alright, I’m going to go check the mail at the end of our dirt road.  Karis’s language arts curriculum is there.

Hopefully next update will be more positive.

2 thoughts

    1. Thank you. While I do know that, it’s good to be reminded. It’s hard not to get caught up in the struggle.

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